Everyones were asking me where am i going to celebrate my new year. Well, im so sorry because i cant tell each of you where did i celebrate it coz i might want to have it alone for this year & yes no party as well =(
I have no idea why i dont have that good mood. Maybe it was because im having PMS and yet im very sensitive during PMS. I was "why did he have to says that" i mean my working partner knows that i am going to be on leave..he should not says such thing like "i wanna see are you ok during holidays when you know the bosses are coming?" sigh~ give me a break...i never talk to you like that during your holidays.
That night...i was with some new friends, went to this place where we can see KK town from above..i guess God do hear my prayer..that night was no rain & fireworks are everywhere..my gosh it sooo beautiful & rilexing feeling. I was too emotional that time..i keep myself a distance & cry out for what i have done in the year 2010. No matter how hard it is, i still have to let it go..
I reach home around 1am..i cant sleep because my phone keep rang till 3am. geez~ what a day =)..but i still can wake up early at 9am because my phone continues ringing..another message make me feel down on my day =( because of that message i feel more unhappy & i feel like this year brings me bad luck =( i lie if i tell you im ok..but im not. I called a friend that can understand me and make me feels better but i was wrong. What happen is, i make he mad at me and talk such bad things and the most hurt me is he askes for "get the hell out of his life" i feel tiny than an ant. What did i do wrong?? everyone seems dont like me.
this afternoon my mom brings me to the zoo, i just pretend im happy & having a family dinner, i feel like crying~ im stuck here..happiness & sorrow..what i might says this year is the worse birthday i ever had.
LOve Qyrie
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